应为你的一句话，然我很伤心.

3:40+ PM 21/7/2011

我打给你。。。 你接了。。聊了几句，你开始问我。。

“如果我回Seria住。你会生气吗?  ”

我当场留下了眼捩。为了然你不知道，我再问你，

“那你几时回？”

“下个礼拜。”

“那么快就要离开？”

“对。”

天底下的父母都一样。忍一忍，一下下就过去。

为了他们你一定要这样作吗？

我当然会生气，我也会伤心。你一定要离开吗？一定要吗？非去不可吗？

当然，你不会知道我会很难过。

我也留不下你。你有一切，但我只有你。

在我难过的时候，你每一次都斗我开心，斗我笑。

但你一离开，我想见你也很难了。

你一离开，我舍么都没有了。

你真的要离开？

我希望你都在我身边。

我不想见不到你，那只让我很难过。

希望你都明白。。。 :'(

heartbreak

爱情…为什么总那么虚伪…你说什么爱我…但却不再乎…有人说爱我你才有反应…是想测试你多厉害追到一个多人爱的吗？我真的只是你竞争自信的玩具吗？

放弃
只因为爱得太深
爱太深
才对自己没把握
要用放弃做赌注
输了
只因为对方不够爱你......

学会"宽恕"与"习惯"了' 就该把所有该忘的事给忘掉' 任何一丝你的点滴' 我不会再留下' 希望你以后会开心'

我好希望你能在睡觉之前信息对我说：
我好想你
4个字有那么难打吗？

我盖你电话的时候、你说会打电话给我的、还说很快…我等了一个半夜、结果你早上才打来、聊不到几句就盖电话了;[

就算沒有你的陪伴，我也可以獨自飛翔。
那麼我就放手你的愛，放手你的恨！
謝謝你愛過我，謝謝你陪伴著我。
我在這一段日子裡，我不會感到寂寞和孤單。
我選擇放手，是因為我不想再次被你傷害！
因為愛，才有恨。
我給你機會是人情，我不給你機會是道理，你懂嗎？

我们的爱琴就像这样 :

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk about yourself; you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head; make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough; I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/fuckin-perfect-lyrics-pink.html ]

You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty,pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me, yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect
Ohh pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothin' you're fuckin' perfect to me.
FUCKIN PERFECT-PINK

Never look back, run and reach your goal

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Its hard...

What is love? Do we need love? For some reason, we need... All kid born in this world, all has been love by their own parent and family. Not all enough... Today I am sharing about my story to you all blogger, readers or whatever...


I been live in this family for 14 years (of course I do) for some reason, I can feel by my six senses (lols if you could) that this family will not be perfect any longer... While when I small... I’m soooo cute :3 *perasan* (lol it’s out of topic) I was love by my brother, my cousin of course my parent and teacher also. Month by month, year by year I’m growing into a kiddo lol, a teenagers. After I graduated from my chms school, I’m move to stpri to continue my secondary studies... I started changing bad, ignore my parent word and started to lie them... And I lost my family love since I was 10 years old... my mum start to change into difference mum (urh.. getting more smexy lol) until i found out Rachel and ruby. We this 3 troublemaker at school. Every time we share our story to each other, got one time me and ruby get in trouble at school XD it’s my second time get in HEP and ruby is the first time :O (HAHAHAHA quite stress that time) and in around April month me, ruby and Rachel get in HEP again -. - Me is third time Liao (Waa streesss) ruby second time (so unlucky) Rachel also second. We play mobile phone at school until prefect check Dao. FML!! Hais...


After all this, I meet teddy, he nice :3 both we (me, Rachel and ruby) had in relationship in same month! *weeeeee~* first week it goes well... but who knows after it, we keep quarrel all this week because of my pass. I don't get it, why my pass so sensitive to him? Every time we argue in the end all about Kenny pang la, Kenneth la, Shane la. He so sensitive... I’m the one who surfer all this pain all he do is angry at me. Even I cry so hard, he won’t know it. I never cry in front of someone if I need. Like Rachel say '' You are a strong girl right? You won’t cry in front of us. BE strong, brave and face it.'' All I can do is crying. IM a crying baby... Now these days I stuck at home. I can’t out with him or hangout, even our monthsary I almost can't out. I always make him disappoint. I just know I’m useless whenever I in relationship. I always make him angry, disappoint. He never understood me well... even he gets sick I call him to see a doctor he also doesn’t want. I just want him to be healthy again like pass, i want him to be happy to be strong to be a happy person in my life. What he does is no and no... I ask him why? He answers '' if I see a doctor, doctor will let me stay at hospital '' its great atleast he won’t suffer more pain when he got gastric. He just doesn’t want... He never know because of him I ended up hitting by my parent, ended up lost some of my friend, ended up crying alone in my room. The next day when I wake up, I just pretend nothing is happen...HE never understand what i want andni what i need..


And my mum she starts hating me more and more. All this day I talking to her like talking to the wall, she never reply me single word. Whenever I look in her eye, all I can see is her anger. What did I do wrong? I can’t have a peace day? Wtf. every time I talking to her we ended up fighting... last night, she talks this word to me '' why every time you like making me angry? Why you and your father is the same? Do you want I divorce with your dad and left you alone over here? I can leave this house any minute if you want me to. I’m tired being with you all, I’m tired looking at you, I’m tired seeing you guys argue. I had enough....’’ She really wants to leave this house so much... from that day she and my father never talk...


You guys every time seeing me happy but inside me I’m not. I’m a lonely girl, I’m useless, I’m stupid, and I think I born in this world is a mistake..  And i think god should take my life away HOW I WISH MY LIFE HAD AN UNDO BUTTON :')

I'm not perfect enough..MonthMay u such a crue month

Many people in stress, heartbroken, sad and lonely in this month. we cant get a happy time only just in one week. everystatus i saw plus my all abt exam, stress and sad. i had learn how to be happy. dont get yr badself to face it cus tat the devil side which its want u to be angry all the time and make u worse and getting bad. one of my friend though me, ' u cant just stand on the end of the line, u must run, find a way to finish the line' i just knw everything i did all the time is wrong. i being rude and no manners . but i will end this fight quickly cus nw is the time being adult,macture and clever. u cant be a kids, baby anymore. we nw upper secondary nt longer kinergarden kid or primary student. nt longer we will graduation and going universiti and work. we need to start frm nw, forget the sad memory and think the happy thing in yr life. tats cus i knw there someone out there love me so much but i still keep hurting him and my best friend. i hurt her wit my own devil word. i just knw shouting and argue is nt the way to end. we need to talk and knw each other more and nt doing the same mistake again. im still lucky cus i got alot of friend, sibling and sistar . frm nw on, forget the past and nw present. think abt our future and dont make it worse rite nw.

im sorry teddy and ruby, being rude all the time. please forgive me being rude cus i was scare to lose u guys. i really love u and care u </3

Thanks God

well well, i had been joined cheerleading, but i just heard got audition going.. haha.. whole group of my class gave up. now we in the stpri library again. well.. hope i can write more abt it. Bye :D

unforgetable night :/

9th april 2011, Empire Hotel....

its was gladys 15th belated and shien chung 17th birthday. Most of our friend had been invited tio the party but RACHEL CHAN not going it.. -.- (dulan) :( the party was a disaster.. omg cant believe a gay in it ==" its not fun that my (laogong) rachel not goingh its, i feels bored somehow....

eveyone in the party have a partner only me!!!!!! :( sadlife.. party start on 9:30. we cheer for the birthday girl and boy and have a ABSOLUTED ,CASLBERG and VODKA. for the drink. everyone in the drunk mood except someones. i was a bit regret doing something that shouldnt do at it... itts was like wtf?! what i do that for? seriously i feels happy? sad? blur over man! plus i saw something that i shouldnt seen == EWWWWWWW~ disgusting :) *wink wink* LOL! 

That night was full of funness, happieness and galiness?? HAHAHa i have a great time over there... i was almost kena kiss by ermm... 6? am i a prostitutes(chick in easy way, ayam in malay)??? HEY~ dont you dare touch me...  plus my li0s had been stole :x.. hais sadlife...

NOW in the libary of stpri with rachel hope no one knows what im writing== tata~ BYE

Part 2

Seriously that time i surpose to finish my word but some stpri student keep looking at my back... so i continue today. ^^ haha

that time we surpose find a book to read at libraly, we accidentally saw a " FIRST AIDS" book xD i know its contain biological stuff and human body stuff, rachel go and open but she didint saw some of it. suddenly... we saw a CONDOM PAGE  we laugh so hard until one of my friend come.. then rachel keep saying " aiyer, so big and long the condom XD " i was " LOL" then yong come abd say " wat are u guys watching .... and OMG!!!!  i was like LOL and walk away and they still wacthing the book..

after out from the libraly, we went to find ruby( arina nanibubu) classsss~ we make fun of her then we back to our classsess~

POA(class)

MATHS???(class)

wuuuuuuuuuuuuu yeah~ after school going where? GERAI la of cus walking to there find KEN!!
we play in the rain poke each other PINE!!! ahha u owe me one :)