heartbreak

爱情…为什么总那么虚伪…你说什么爱我…但却不再乎…有人说爱我你才有反应…是想测试你多厉害追到一个多人爱的吗？我真的只是你竞争自信的玩具吗？

放弃
只因为爱得太深
爱太深
才对自己没把握
要用放弃做赌注
输了
只因为对方不够爱你......

学会"宽恕"与"习惯"了' 就该把所有该忘的事给忘掉' 任何一丝你的点滴' 我不会再留下' 希望你以后会开心'

我好希望你能在睡觉之前信息对我说：
我好想你
4个字有那么难打吗？

我盖你电话的时候、你说会打电话给我的、还说很快…我等了一个半夜、结果你早上才打来、聊不到几句就盖电话了;[

就算沒有你的陪伴，我也可以獨自飛翔。
那麼我就放手你的愛，放手你的恨！
謝謝你愛過我，謝謝你陪伴著我。
我在這一段日子裡，我不會感到寂寞和孤單。
我選擇放手，是因為我不想再次被你傷害！
因為愛，才有恨。
我給你機會是人情，我不給你機會是道理，你懂嗎？

我们的爱琴就像这样 :

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk about yourself; you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head; make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough; I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/fuckin-perfect-lyrics-pink.html ]

You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty,pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me, yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect
Ohh pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothin' you're fuckin' perfect to me.
FUCKIN PERFECT-PINK

Never look back, run and reach your goal

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Its hard...

What is love? Do we need love? For some reason, we need... All kid born in this world, all has been love by their own parent and family. Not all enough... Today I am sharing about my story to you all blogger, readers or whatever...


I been live in this family for 14 years (of course I do) for some reason, I can feel by my six senses (lols if you could) that this family will not be perfect any longer... While when I small... I’m soooo cute :3 *perasan* (lol it’s out of topic) I was love by my brother, my cousin of course my parent and teacher also. Month by month, year by year I’m growing into a kiddo lol, a teenagers. After I graduated from my chms school, I’m move to stpri to continue my secondary studies... I started changing bad, ignore my parent word and started to lie them... And I lost my family love since I was 10 years old... my mum start to change into difference mum (urh.. getting more smexy lol) until i found out Rachel and ruby. We this 3 troublemaker at school. Every time we share our story to each other, got one time me and ruby get in trouble at school XD it’s my second time get in HEP and ruby is the first time :O (HAHAHAHA quite stress that time) and in around April month me, ruby and Rachel get in HEP again -. - Me is third time Liao (Waa streesss) ruby second time (so unlucky) Rachel also second. We play mobile phone at school until prefect check Dao. FML!! Hais...


After all this, I meet teddy, he nice :3 both we (me, Rachel and ruby) had in relationship in same month! *weeeeee~* first week it goes well... but who knows after it, we keep quarrel all this week because of my pass. I don't get it, why my pass so sensitive to him? Every time we argue in the end all about Kenny pang la, Kenneth la, Shane la. He so sensitive... I’m the one who surfer all this pain all he do is angry at me. Even I cry so hard, he won’t know it. I never cry in front of someone if I need. Like Rachel say '' You are a strong girl right? You won’t cry in front of us. BE strong, brave and face it.'' All I can do is crying. IM a crying baby... Now these days I stuck at home. I can’t out with him or hangout, even our monthsary I almost can't out. I always make him disappoint. I just know I’m useless whenever I in relationship. I always make him angry, disappoint. He never understood me well... even he gets sick I call him to see a doctor he also doesn’t want. I just want him to be healthy again like pass, i want him to be happy to be strong to be a happy person in my life. What he does is no and no... I ask him why? He answers '' if I see a doctor, doctor will let me stay at hospital '' its great atleast he won’t suffer more pain when he got gastric. He just doesn’t want... He never know because of him I ended up hitting by my parent, ended up lost some of my friend, ended up crying alone in my room. The next day when I wake up, I just pretend nothing is happen...HE never understand what i want andni what i need..


And my mum she starts hating me more and more. All this day I talking to her like talking to the wall, she never reply me single word. Whenever I look in her eye, all I can see is her anger. What did I do wrong? I can’t have a peace day? Wtf. every time I talking to her we ended up fighting... last night, she talks this word to me '' why every time you like making me angry? Why you and your father is the same? Do you want I divorce with your dad and left you alone over here? I can leave this house any minute if you want me to. I’m tired being with you all, I’m tired looking at you, I’m tired seeing you guys argue. I had enough....’’ She really wants to leave this house so much... from that day she and my father never talk...


You guys every time seeing me happy but inside me I’m not. I’m a lonely girl, I’m useless, I’m stupid, and I think I born in this world is a mistake..  And i think god should take my life away HOW I WISH MY LIFE HAD AN UNDO BUTTON :')

I'm not perfect enough..MonthMay u such a crue month

Many people in stress, heartbroken, sad and lonely in this month. we cant get a happy time only just in one week. everystatus i saw plus my all abt exam, stress and sad. i had learn how to be happy. dont get yr badself to face it cus tat the devil side which its want u to be angry all the time and make u worse and getting bad. one of my friend though me, ' u cant just stand on the end of the line, u must run, find a way to finish the line' i just knw everything i did all the time is wrong. i being rude and no manners . but i will end this fight quickly cus nw is the time being adult,macture and clever. u cant be a kids, baby anymore. we nw upper secondary nt longer kinergarden kid or primary student. nt longer we will graduation and going universiti and work. we need to start frm nw, forget the sad memory and think the happy thing in yr life. tats cus i knw there someone out there love me so much but i still keep hurting him and my best friend. i hurt her wit my own devil word. i just knw shouting and argue is nt the way to end. we need to talk and knw each other more and nt doing the same mistake again. im still lucky cus i got alot of friend, sibling and sistar . frm nw on, forget the past and nw present. think abt our future and dont make it worse rite nw.

im sorry teddy and ruby, being rude all the time. please forgive me being rude cus i was scare to lose u guys. i really love u and care u </3